By night I escape to my music collection, books, television, art and the Internet, where I write fanfic and sometimes indulge in Livejournal roleplay.
My favourite characters to play are Miles Edgeworth (Ace Attorney), Hoshigaki Kisame (Naruto) and Kyouraku Shunsui (Bleach), the latter with a touch of Katen Kyokotsu on the side.
My musical tastes are wide and varied but firmly have their roots in non-mainstream '80s UK.
You can also find me on Plurk, Last FM, Livejournal, Photobucket, Twitter and Flickr.
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@cuttjapan AND @TAKA_defspiral Uploaded (…Together!! (笑）) one of hide’s most popular songs:
“ROCKET DIVE” to Youtube It’s an acoustic version with both of them singing and playing guitar. Let this Rocket fly around the globe and be a tribute to hide as well as an appreciation for today’s talented musicians in Japan! Way to go guys!
It was in January 1998 when we were shooting the promotional video for ROCKET DIVE at Kurosawa studio when I said, “hide, I think this song will sell well!!” He answered, “Do you think so? I spent so much money,” and said, “Last year was not so good, but this year is awesome!! For MIX LEMONed JELLY in August, I’ll make use of the internet and have a dress code. Please look forward to it.” It was really strange for me, as I have never done it before, but I gave him a New Year’s gift. Then he said, “What~! For me?” and beamed like a kid. That smile he had still remains with me today, in my heart.
I’m often asked to speak about my memories of hide, and every time I worry about what I should write as I have too many memories to fit in to the spaces that they provide! From around the debut of X until in the middle of the 90s, I played with hide often. We met in interviews, but went out drinking together often. We went to hot springs, amusement parks, driving, etc. We probably drank together about five out of seven days a week. We would often laugh and say, “Why are we out together all the time? We are not family nor are we lovers!” I remember that clearly. PATA was always with us too.
I think hide was a person who felt lonesome very easily. Even when we started drinking with a few people, he said, “Let’s call xxx!” and he called various people, and so many people would gather without much notice at all. He didn’t care if it was midnight or people were working. He wouldn’t hang up the phone until we said, “OK, I’ll go,” so we named his invitations the ‘devil’s phone’. Then the people would try to go home saying, “I have to work tomorrow,” but he didn’t let us go home easily. He tried to stop us from going home using every trick in the book, like hiding our coats or shoes. That hide was really innocent, like a naughty child.
However, once he started his creative activities, he stopped calling us suddenly. He said it was ‘national isolation’, staying in the studio all the time and concentrating on creating music without seeing anybody. I think he was very good at using on and off work properly. He enjoyed it fully when he played, and he worked with all his might when he created music. I think you can see his attitude in every part of his music. There is warmth even in the lyrics of his most cynical songs, which I think shows how his nature was projected in his music.
I’m so tired to see everyone talking/arguing about hide’s death theories and i don’t think May 2nd is the right day to talk about that. Remember him and stop wondering about how he died ; i asked myself this question over and over for many years, i was obsessed with finding the truth but the fact…
Hear hear. Let’s just agree that whatever the cause, it was an incredibly sad and untimely death, then let him rest in peace and remember him kindly (and always with a smile).
"White cloud floating over the edge of the horizon. I’m absent-mindedly looking at it. Erase my sadness by the spray of the wave. Erase my voiceless screaming by wild waves. I can see his smile in the sky. That is the message from him, "I’m flying in space freely". I had such a dream. I just wanted to make a journey that explores the spirits with you. I just wanted to make a bridge that connects my sound and your sound. To my dearest friend."
This is still one of my favourite tributes to hide - both the music and words by Taiji and the slideshow that goes with it. It’s additionally poignant this year with the loss of Taiji last autumn.
I’m not a religious person of any stripe, but sometimes it makes me smile to imagine they’re jamming together somewhere - laughing and drinking and playing bad jokes on one another without a care in the world.
I don’t think either of them would want people to be sad for their passing, but rather to remember them for their music and their passion.
But I guess you don’t always get what you want, either in life or in death.
I never knew a man who is loved as much as he is.
I never knew a man filled with as much talent as he was.
I never knew a man who was as passionate as he was.
hide is so great that we will never be able to go further than him.
I’m making music just to be able to get closer to him."
No matter where i am nor what i am doing, i could never live through this day unaware of its meaning. I never imagined losing someone could possibly hurt that much. Fourteen years, and the pain has not dulled even one merciful sliver. In movies, you cry at their funeral, you look through old pictures and think of what it was like when they were alive, and then you move on and live your life without them. I’m living my life without you, but I haven’t moved on. I cried at your funeral, too. I stood there, in front of your casket, crying in silence. Did you see me? Did you see how pathetic you made me? Did you finally see me break, and fall, and learn? Despair holds wisdom. Pain can teach you a lot. I went to your grave today and i brought you blue roses. I haven’t forgotten you, hide. I can’t forget you. I hope you’re happy now, hide. I really do.